“Go in peace my daughter. And remember that, in a world of ordinary mortals, you are a Wonder Woman.” Queen Hippolyte

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"When you are Real you don't mind being hurt." -Skin Horse

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Nerd Alert; Meet Hatch

My AWESOME night elf rogue, Hatch. Level 80. Gear score 5266. *nerd translation*: powerful. She's my main and lately I have been running her through Icecrown Citadel, but haven't made it to the Lich King just yet. Anyway, tonight during the run I get my off-hand weapon in a drop. And I was SO SO sosososo excited that it is identical to my main hand weapon! I am now symmetrical and matchy matchy! This post may be my nerdy weakness but I remain totally girly and cool by caring if my armor and weapons match. WHICH THEY DO, SUCKAS!!! I even went to the barber and updated her hairdo so it matches her wicked cool ensemble.

Ah, thank you. *bows slightly*

Isn't she awesome? (imagine a breathy voice)

Since it's Father's Day, I would just like to say I have the best Dad ever. No seriously. EVER. And the best husband too. So tonight in tribute to Father's Day, I made wienerschnitzels. Not to toot my own horn but those snitzels were good. Yummy good. Husband was pleased with me. And when we first started dating I couldn't cook spaghettios. So I've done some serious improving over the last *gasp* 5 MONTHS...almost.

Here's one more look of my matchy matchy rogue, Hatch, cause I know you can't get enough of her! Sometimes I turn on WOW just to admire how bloody sweet she is. *sigh* Gorgeous, GORGEOUS axes.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Empty.

Sometimes I convince myself I might be pregnant again. I want to be. Which, I know sounds so strange because all pregnant women are counting down the days until they are un-pregnant. But becoming un-pregnant too soon leaves me wanting it again so badly. It seems odd, we weren't even trying and I didn't want it, but as soon as it happened, all I could think about was how much I wanted that baby. And now I don't have one.

And every other woman I know is pregnant or just recently had a baby. It seems so unfair that I had to lose mine. It hurts when they complain about their big bellies or that their baby is kicking their ribs, or they have morning sickness, because all I can think about is how they are so lucky to still have their babies, when I lost mine way too soon. I know I will have my chance at being pregnant again and delivering a healthy baby, but right now...it just aches.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Too close, too close.

Time to get personal. Maybe too personal. And I might delete this post later, who knows. But I want to be thin again. SO so badly. I hate the way my body has changed in just the last 4 -5 months. I gained a lot of weight and got pregnant, lost the pregnancy and am left over with this weird misshapen body. Like I am supposed to be pregnant still but I am not, so why do I still look like this? And I want to change it. I want to go back to the way I was last summer or even early winter. But to do that I would need to diet. And anyone who really knows me, knows dieting is not an option. But my body has become so abnormal that I feel like I have no other option.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Lost Jellyfish and Handcuffs.

Legit. I had a miscarriage the day before we left for our cruise. So the jellyfish is no longer. I am heartbroken, I only knew about it for a little over a week, but mama got super attached to her jellyfish. It was so hard to watch it happening, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. So I just bawled my eyes out every time I flushed parts of Jellyfish down the toilet. It seemed so unceremonious to flush what was once a baby growing inside of me. And maybe that is why I cried so hard. But I'm slowly getting better each day and I know we will have another jellyfish soon, one that will go full term and one I can actually hold in my arms. And that will be a beautiful day. But until then I just keep working on moving on.

On a much happier note; the cruise was amazing, the beaches were incredible and I am sporting a tan. Yes, I am not, in fact, a vampire, despite what has been said. Husband and I had an amazing time cruising the Caribbean, eating tons of delicious food, gaining weight and basking in the sunlight.

There was however, one slight wardrobe mishap.






The Hat.











 I. Love. My. Husband.

This hat, and the fact he bought it, is one of the million reasons he makes me heart melt.

      Kissing my frog Prince.                 Is this not cute or what?

                   A honeymoon is not complete without handcuffs.

We also saw the ancient Mayan ruins of Tulum, but ditched our tour guide as he was horribly long winded and played in the ocean, shorts and all. I could not believe the number of Iguanas living there. Although, the scenery is stunning.... so if the rent is free, why not? I hope we get to go back again someday, maybe even see the ruins of Chichen Itza again. But next time I am bringing a bathing suit. That weather is scorching. Too bad Ghent forgot his old man straw hat though, he made it look so damn good. We really would have stuck out as tourists with the sunburns, cruise bus tour stickers and old man straw hat. Anyway, just bragging. We had an AWESOME time! And the food...I mentioned that already. No need to go into it more. Yum.

However, el gato, Yumi was not happy we left her for 8 days. She was in good hands though. Yet she was still MAD MAD MAD and she let us hear about it for 48 hours straight.

 Meowza.
I just tinkled in my pants a little.